life update
Lately, most of my blogs have been academic. I really didn’t think I could take this blog and turn it into a semester long project, but I did and it was pretty cool. I am reaching the point in college where the classwork I am doing is becoming more and more relevant to what I want to do with my life and not going to lie, it’s pretty rewarding.
A little update on my life. I have accepted my first internship doing marketing for the State of Massachuesetts. EEK. I am a government employee. Watch out. It is definitely time to put my Twitter on a private setting.
Other than that, I have been making some progress in the writing portion of my career. It is pretty crazy to think that I am going to most likely end up writing for a living. I had always avoided making my passion a career because I fear that it will take the fun out of writing for me. I also have always believed that the only people who make it in the writing world are insanely talented poets and people who can bang out a novel with extreme symbolism while obtaining a vocabulary miles beyond my own. And that is definitely somewhat the case, however I have come to terms with the fact that I enjoy writing and that’s really all I need to know as of now.
I remember coming to college as a freshman, thinking I was going to be an ER physician. One thing I am is extremely passionate, even if it is about the wrong thing. Senior year of high school I was so convinced that I was going to be a doctor so I changed all my writing courses to math and science courses last minute and also sacrificed my social life that year. Although this is the opposite of what I am finding myself doing, I don’t regret that part of my life at all. I find it extremely important to go after what you want to do full-force and fail. The failure in that part of my education led me to what I truly am meant to do. I find that part of my life an incredible blessing. It got rid of the “What Ifs” and replaced them with “Okay that wasn’t right for me, and it will be fine.” I think that is the true point of an education.
Upon all this, I have also realized that I have no idea what I want from life. I know that I want to be happy and have a beach house at some point. Also travel Europe for a couple months after graduation. But that’s pretty much it. I have no clue who I want to marry, how many kids I want or the job I am going to end up having. I used to want five kids but after my recent obsession with the show “Teen Mom 2,” I think I might switch around that plan. Great show BTW. I don’t think I’ll ever get rid of my disgusting love for trash reality TV.
So basically, these past months have been filled with growth, confusion, and excitement. It is hard to find things to be hopeful about in the current climate of the world. At some point you have to let go of the control, constant planning, and just let shit be. As my high school Spanish teacher always said, life is about the ride. I miss that woman. No one tell her I am taking Beginning Spanish 1 as a college senior after 4 years of her advanced Spanish classes.